Two Weeks Later

It's been two weeks since Callie passed. I haven't been posting here much since her story is over. It's my story that continues; the story of those left behind. I've had good days and bad days. Missing her doesn't go away. Since she was with us for only five months there are times when it almost feels like just a dream that she was here.

We've started to clean up to prepare for a new pet. I purchased a steam cleaner just yesterday. Mike plans to start cleaning the rugs and the floors tomorrow. Soon we'll have the home free of any possibly virus that Callie left behind.

I miss having a pet around. I know I can't have my Callie back but I want to adopt someone new into our home. With a vacation coming soon Mike feels we should wait until we come back. The logical side of me agrees with him. The emotional side of me just wants to run out and bring someone new home.

I've made a picture book of all of Callie's pictures. It's 120 pages filled with over 250 pictures. I understand now why I took so many. The UPS tracking site tells me it should arrive tomorrow. I can't wait to have it. We also have the professional pictures of Callie to choose from. I look forward to the day where I can come home and see her face around the house.

Two days ago I day-dreamt about finding a stray cat that needed a home. Yesterday I pulled into my parking spot to see a stray hiding a few feet away. As I approached the cat s/he ran away. I found it later on and noticed no collar but a healthy body weight. I think this cat lives in the drainage pipes around my complex. I took a walk again today and spotted him or her yet again. Like last time s/he ran towards the pipe for safety. I have left some food out on my porch, hoping to let it know that it's safe here and give it food if it is hungry. Unfortunately I think my porch might be too far away from the safe areas. I had never seen a stray before adopting Callie, now I'm trying to bring one home.

On a sad note a friend of mine has a cat with a probable FIP diagnosis. My heart is breaking for her. I've been in her shoes and I wish I could just make it better for her. Sadly I know that even if better can be achieved if it is a long and hard process. If anyone is still reading my ramblings please keep this new kitty, Lucy, in your thoughts. She needs the miracle that Callie was unable to find.